How do you do it?

People ask me all the time. "How do you do it" Everything I ever been through in life. From Suicide attempts,drugs,alcohol,physical and verbal abuse,seeing my parents marriage fall apart,and have to witness their divorce. To getting bad news about my kids. The whole nine. Ever since I was a little girl. I always had a smile on my face no matter what. Yes most of the time I was hurting inside. In till One day, I took my daughter to the doctors. This Doctor that I never met before in my life. Told me WOW Crystal I know by your actions,the way your talking,and the smile on your face. That you are a Good Mother,and No matter how big your problems are, you don't let it get the best of you. This man begin to talk about God to me. See even though I didn't know God growing up. He has always been a part of my life,and I didn't even know it, till now. I remember as a kid I would pray to this God that I didn't even know. This God that my family never even talked about,but so boldly claim to Love him. No matter what I've done in my past. I know he has forgiven me,and He has always been around and tooken care of me. I will never leave you nor forsake you. Is his promise that he will never break. How do I do it? Easy it is God who strengthens,and Get me through the storms,and over these high mountains. I could do nothing nor get through it without him. Till this day I still have my struggles. With doubting my self,at everything I do. Sometimes when I go through stuff, and it feels like a slap in the face. Then I begin to think. Hey everything happens for a reason. That's when God gives me the strength to get up,and gives me this peace,and I put the smile on my face That I always have. Something I thought I would shear. God bless you all :)